Hello. Reporting from 1668 and I have to warn you - I'm salty today. There will be no sugar coating this one. I'm currently not pooping sunshine and rainbows. Here's the low down.
Today marks my 20th day here. I miss my kids like crazy. Blake starts kindergarten tomorrow. I have been bottomed out for 5 days now. I'm overly fatigued. I fully understand the whole "valley of a transplant" lingo. I'm scraping the bottom of the barrel. I have a mouth full of mucositis (mouth sores from chemo). I can't eat, drink, talk or swallow. Just not up for anything. All my meds have been turned over to IV for the time being. I'm on a pain pump so I can grab my next dose of Dilaudid at my discretion. I spiked my first neutropenic fever which called for a lot of blood work, chest X-Ray and urine sample. Oh, and I'm bald.
Not fishing for compliments. Nothing you say or do helps with the fact I had to shave my head. Sorry. The "you're still beautiful's" and "It's just hair" are kind and sweet, but, there's really no need to wrap it up in a pretty little bow. Real life here. It's the main thing that caused me anxiety and I'm so glad it's over with. One less thing to constantly think about it. So, my sweet, smart, and curious Kendall Kay finally got the answer she was looking for yesterday. "Yes, mommy lost her hair." Mom and dad, please understand I'm excusing myself from the "no hats at the table" rule for a few months. Who knows! Maybe I'll be totally comfortable rocking the bald head?!
On that note... 😜😜. Haha! I told you I was salty. Air and water show this weekend. Definitely giving me something to look forward to. I hear I have the perfect spot for it. I had a big long blog written in my head but this will have to do for now. Can't keep my eyes open.
Be well! Is it still summer out there?
Love,
Rhonda Kay
PS. ALLLLLL the cards and packages that I receive daily TOTALLY make my days. It's like getting mail in college, only better. Thank you!!!
Dang, I cannot even imagine. I am just so sorry. I am so sorry about your hair. As women we are attached to our hair. I wish I could say or do something. Just want you to know we have been thinking about you and praying for you. AND....you really are beautiful inside and out. Thinking good thoughts for you.....
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Lots and lots of hugs!
ReplyDeleteNo words -- just know that you are heard and loved. I cannot wait until you are on the other side of this treatment and rejoicing in the fruits of your labor.
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I don't know about you, but just think of the savings of not having to buy hair products for awhile. My hair makes my head itch at times... just know I'm thinking of you and you're doing a great job keeping positive and kicking ass!! - Allison Harbin
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